I have read these scriptures my entire life. To me they meant, in a way, for us to do the best that we could to live the commandments....to repent when we needed to....to make corrections where corrections should be made....to endure just living in this world of wickedness and temptation. Now, Now these scripture take on a whole new meaning. Not only do I have to live worthy enough to be given the gift of eternal life so that I can be with my baby girl again, but I have to endure my entire life on this earth without her. I will never again hear the word "endure" and let it pass by so lightly.
Yesterday made it three months since Hailey left this world. When I allow myself to go back to that moment it is so fresh, so raw. I'm not sure that that will ever change. I have the feeling that whenever I go back my emotions will be right there waiting like a pot of water about to boil over the top. I can only hope that when I get to see her again that I will not have to remember or feel the heartbreak of what we are enduring here for the rest of our lives on this earth.
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thank you for sharing and trying to endure- the promise we are given makes this earthlife a stepping stone and Hailey will be your best cheerleader. :)
I appreciate you sharing your thoughts on those scriptures. It is amazing how a scripture can take on new meaning based on our individual life experiences.
I can't even imagine the depth and magnitude of what this experience has brought to your life. It's hard to foresee the joy of the future in the sorrow of the moment(s). Only someone that has been in your shoes can really understand your daily sorrows.
I hope you know that in whatever small ways possible you can feel of the love of those around you when we do happen to meet.
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences. I know I don't just speak for myself when I say that losing Hailey taught us all about faith, and also humility, and like you said, the power to endure. I truly believe that your ability to not only endure, but to remain faithful and to teach all of us about what it means to truly love our Savior, has touched and changed our lives. Thank you for your testimony, and for your friendship. You are a very special person.
Melica, I think of you daily. I hold you and your dear family in my heart. May Heavenly Father continue to bless you as you continue to "endure". Thank you for sharing your insights, your faith, and your testimony. I love and miss you.
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